Ang Huling stick ng yosi

Habang hinihithit ko ang kahuli-hulihang yosi ko sa harap ng ELJ building, magkahalong tuwa at lungkot ang namumutawi sakin. Nag-resign na naman ako, but this time nagpaalam ako. Naghalohalong reminiscing at pasasalamat sa hangin at sa buong building ang ginawa ko...

Naisip ko lang, siguro nga I have already learned my lessons. Hindi na ko parang tangang bigla na lang tumatakbo kapag nagkakagulo na mag-isa. Hindi na ko tulad ng dating takot sabihin ang tunay na nararamdaman at sabihin kung bakit ako aalis. At higit sa lahat, hindi na ko takot magpaalam.

Habang nasa taxi ako, abot abot ang pasasalamat ko sa Diyos at sa wakas alam kong may nagbabago. Sa totoo lang, pinaglabanan ko rin yung katamaran ko kanina bago ako pumunta sa opisina at mag-file ng immediate resignation. Pero sa kabila ng lahat, alam ko nagawa ko ang dapat kong gawin. At napakasarap ng pakiramdam kapag wala kang iniisip, hindi ka nagtatago, at higit sa lahat, nakapagpaalam ng maayos.

Kaya bago maubos ang huling stick ng yosi ko, nais kong pasalamatan ang lahat ng taong nagturo sa akin kung paano harapin ang katotohanan. Sabay ang ngiti sa pagpatak ng luha.

Kapitan Sino: Kaunting masasabi.

Wag manggamit ng tao. Siguro ganun nga yung nais sabihin ni bob ong. Lumabas kasi sa libro yung iba't ibang anggulo ng panggagamit at pang aabuso sa kakayahan ng ibang tao. Nakakalungkot lang kasi nakita ko rin ang sa sarili ko sa isang banda ng kwento. Ako si Rogelio.
Ang ayoko lang, politikal. Pero ang maganda lang, kahit nakakainis kasi politikal, totoo lahat. Totoo na ang tao ay mahilig manghingi ng tulong, at abusuhin ito. Totoo na ang taong tumutulong ay bulag sa katotohanang niloloko at inaabuso na siya ng mga tao. Totoo na ang taong tumutulong ay nawawalan ng sariling pagkakakilanlan dahil sa nauubos ang kanyang oras sa kakatulong sa mga taong nagiging tamad.

Maganda rin ang setting ng kwento. 90's. Nabanggit lahat ng may kinalaman sa pang araw araw na buhay ng panahong iyon. Ganun din yung ginagawa namin ng mga kaibigan ko pag nakatambay lang. Inaalala yung mga kendi, chichiria, palabas, laro, at kung anuanu pa, na bumalot sa aming kabataan. Doon naman talaga magaling si bob e. Gamitin ang nakaraan mo para maaliw sa libro niya.

Para naman maging technical ako, sasabihin ko na lang din na walang nagbago sa "style" ng pagsusulat niya.Malaya. May mga maling spelling kahit tagalog, pero ayos lang. Si bob ong yun e.

Ayoko na maging masyadong epal sa sinulat ni bob ong dahil naiiyak lang ako. Basta alam ko, ako si Rogelio. Salamat sa mga bok-bok ng buhay ko. At mas maraming salamat sa nag-iisang Tessa ng buhay ko.

Sa mga Aling Precious at Aling Baby, magbago na tayo.

At sa mga Mayor at Bise sa buhay ko, tsk tsk tsk lang ang masasabi ko.

Salamat.

Kapitan Sino: Initial Feedback

Nagbabasa ako ngayon ng Kapitan Sino ni bob ong. Nararamdaman ko nagpapalit na siya ng anyo. Pero anuman ang maging tunay kong saloobin tungkol sa librong ito, iba-blog ko.. ahahahaha...

Kelangan Ulit-ulitin para Matuto

it is not about happiness, it is about how to find for happiness.

The most challenging question I have ever faced in my entire life is the most stupid yet most sensible question a man would ask: Where to find happiness?

Stupid right?

Not really... Well, it is only when we have learned how to be contented with what we have and appreciate the small things that we have gained that we will discover the door through this thing so-called "happiness".

Clear?...

Kapag Umuulan

Nothing beats Piatos and Coke....

When the world turns rainy and stormy.... Just grab a pack of Piatos, a bottle of Coke sakto, and a stick of cigarette....


Life becomes more colorful...

Believe it..

ran out of sensible things to say

If one day, you woke up tired and lost, as if looking for changes and a bit of improvement with how your life goes, what will be the first thing that you will try to do? Will you immediately end up all your commitments and start looking for those new things, or will you just continue with what you currently have while looking for that new thing? What if you can’t figure out what was wrong? Will you just pretend that the confusion don’t exist and continue with what you have started?
There will be days and times in our life that we will opt to hide what’s bothering us just to satisfy the needs of the people around us, because we believe that that is our prime purpose, to make sure that everything is in the right place. There will dilemmas and confusions as to what should we take into consideration first, ourselves or our family. There will be doubts on every decision that we will make as to who will benefit the result, is it for us or for them. But at the end of the day, we will realize that it is not right living for other people; that we need to live our life as to how we want it to be, because it is us who is sitting on the driver’s seat. Whatever decision we make or whenever the path it will lead us to, it is us who will be penalized for its result, regardless if it is good or bad, simply because it is our life, not theirs.
Maybe the reason why we feel overloaded with tons of responsibilities is because we choose to be responsible, then we find ourselves tired. We cannot blame them, but if they’re starting to be abusive and complacent that someone’s going to handle it for them that’s a different story. And that’s where we start to feel tired. When you try to talk to them and tell them that it’s time for you to concentrate on your own goals and ambitions, they will call you selfish. They will give you their undying script that it will save you a lot of money if you’re at home. Unfair, right?
So, when can we say that it’s enough? If there’s nothing’s left for us? If our last chance just pass out?
It is hard to step onto the next ladder if you know that you have things left undone. It’s also wrong if we will always run if we don’t feel satisfied with what we have. It’s unfair; on the other hand, if we will continue to blame and to give excuses that we cannot move on because of other people because we are just bewildered with the things that mock our crazy minds. Maybe it’s not them. Maybe it’s just us. Maybe we’re just unhappy on how life turns out, because after exerting all our efforts to succeed, we did not reach anything. Well, in fact, we did. It is not just what we have expecting to get.
Now, think. Are you really tired or you’re just unsatisfied?