Renaissance

There may be times when we still long to go back to the time when everything feels perfect as if everything is craft to perfection, until we look closer to the present and realize that what we have now may not feel like a blissful reverie but can still be the best for us.

There will be times that we had second thoughts from choosing what’s best for us and wishing to go back to the days that we have everything and do not need to choose, until we take a closer analogy and realize that we may not have everything but what we have is the best that we could have.

There are times that we will crave for attention and helplessly trying to portray the old superstar that we are and steal the spotlight in the center stage where we used to reign, until we carefully observe the podium and realize that we may not be that superstar on the spotlight but we are the stars of our own stories.

We will suddenly thought that things have changed and we are not who we were.

And we wept.

And run.

And event tried to stop breathing.

But we stand up, and carefully collecting the broken pieces of ourselves as we try to make a different person, trying to move on.

And we fail. But we keep on trying. And we still fail.

Until we look closer and realize that we cannot change the persons inside us, that we cannot run from the past. We may have made tons of imperfections and have been humiliated, but we cannot make it right by changing ourselves. It's all over and scratches were made.

We close our eyes. Take a deep breath.

And we see a brighter understanding of what life is and realize that we are not made with multiple personalities, and moving on is not synonymous to change.

We are who we are, and no amount of unfortunate events can change that. We just realized that certain things has to fade away with time, that we cannot always be at the top, that things are made with equal opportunity for everybody.

And we accept.

And continue living.