For the last time...

At this very moment, I can say, I have totally moved on. No more drastic and unwanted past. No more regrets and "what ifs". Now, I can say, I have stepped a foot forward... Slow as it may seem, but at least I was able to.

It's almost two years, and I can say it's all worth it.

It's not easy to bid goodbyes --- I never liked farewells. However, if this is the only way to make my life better, then I think I have to.

As Michelle Branch's song goes, "Goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything I thought I knew. You were the one I loved, the one thing that I've tried to hold on to..." Yes, you guys have been my shelter in my darkest days, and I owe this part of my life. I might have not survived if not for you. But this is the healthiest thing that I can do. See you soon, for I know our roads will still cross someday.

The past is past, now I have the guts to say. But I won't live all my past behind. I'll still carry some of them on my next journey. I will be traveling in a totally different path. A hundred miles away from what I have dreamed to be, but I'm sure to be happy.

Though the path will be totally different, my goal never changes. But I will be wiser now, wise enough to choose the right choice, the right option, the right company, and the right life.

Finally.

(Sigh)

when things get more confusing...

I never liked choices, it's just giving me so much pain and doubts. Neither having a lot of opportunities is not a good idea for me. That's why after receiving a text message from an employer requesting me to visit their office for a chance of being hired as a writer, place my life in the middle of the ocean---dark, cold, and doomed.

Honestly, I wanted to try my luck. At least by the end of the day, I won't have unanswered questions. At least I have tried.

(Sigh)
I wish things will be better, soon.

I just wanted to write...